Hahahaha, what a question. The sanest person I know. I have no idea, I am not sure i know what is reality and i don't know what someone else is truly thinking or if they can even convey it correctly so that i understand what they really mean. I know what i can touch, see, feel,taste,smell. That doesn't really say much. what is the origin of it all and how is it here? I have theories but i don't truly know (or believe, it might just take truly believing) I guess i'll have to answer this question when i know the answer to those questions. So at the moment, I am the sanest person i know.

It was about 3 months ago, it is a fall but like a wave ever moving forward. A fall is not bad and i don't see what I'm going through as a bad thing . To get to the next mountain we must pass through a valley. The only thing that lets me know i fell is that instead of every moment being super awesome and full of love, it is just ok. I feel like the old me just with different knowledge and understanding of the universe but it doesn't effect how the world feels to me, it doesnt feel connected and .........i dont know how to explain the feeling......... warm, warm is the closest thing to it.

I was talking to one of my good friends who works for son rise(an awesome company that heals autistic children with unconditional love, you should check it out) and she was telling me how much progress this child was making and then one day he went back to his old ways, maybe even worse, and then a few weeks later he would come back and be even better. Its kinda the same thing, we must go into the cocoon to become a butterfly. We humans just are capable of ever changing so we gotta go there more than once a lifetime.

So those of you who have fallen
REJOICE
we are about to climb another mountain
and
this one is going to be the Grandest one yet!

So the other day i had this dream where i was moving things with my mind and a few people were there. I was trying to figure out how i was doing it and how to do it better. An old guy sitting next to me said "quit trying your not even real, your part of this other guys dream". I started thinking about how everyone in our dreams are just us, the person we are perceiving through is just a dream representation, yet in our dreams all the characters dont know that they are actually part of the same guy "the dreamer". In my dream one of my character's was trying to "wake me up" to the fact that i am just a dream. Then yesterday i was thinking why am i trying i am just part of this other guys dream "gods/the universe/One Consciousness". I have decided to stop trying to "wake people up" because that just solidifies that i dont know we are all one because why would i try to wake myself up, only because the I that is me is not truly awake so i am back to just waking myself up which is actually waking everyone up. Because we are all just part of this other guys dream. =)

I love life, most people understand that.
but
I also love destruction and death and other things that people see as evil. I see why people don't like things like that( and until recently i did not like them either) but it is part of the universe part of god it is here to bring change. I looked deep into myself and thought why don't i like these things and i started to see instances were things were destroyed and things died and (perceived) tragic things happened at that moment they were sad but i saw how those events lead to something even more beautiful or it allowed other things to live. So all is part of the universe it is not good not bad just change. All is love

Is so much more than what we know. I do not know but what ive heard.

then

Then

i started to

Open
up

and then


SOOOO MUCH

MOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOORE



THE WOOOOOOW THAT IS NOW IS soooooooooooo
AMAZING
HAHAHAHAHAHH

Just wanted to let you know, if you are one of them there people that have noticed or are starting to
           ITS TRUUUEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE


i think
because i know that no one knows what they know
including me      [=
but i do know the universe knows .............  [=
so i will listen to it
and
you
even though you think you know i KNOW you are much more than what you think

and

THE GOVERNMENT TOTALLY SUCKS

And

dont worry, it doesnt matter,

(that is the best advice i could ever give)

even if you think it does
it doesnt
if you dont know

figure it out
but
remember
it doesnt matter

you are wonderful
NEVER forget that
and
and
and
~Peace~